Still Life in the Midst of Small Shadows

I bind myself up in regrets, someone else's chains and I let them hold me and attack me to no end... Astor had a great life. A professor at a University in Paris, a published author, a family with children...the question was what was missing and what lingered in the shadows that he so desperately longed to touch....What was in front of him that he could not see..that kept him from hearing his calling....