If Tomorrow Never Comes

I am a king. A man with blood on my hands. I take what I want and never have regrets about it. Until Nevada. She is pure and beautiful on the inside and out, but she is not to be had by a man like me. A man that takes the lives of my competition. For small moments in time, I can stand in the warmth of her light, and then I am forced back into this cold world. A darkness that I was used to, until her. Now I dream of the time when I can have her close to me, but not too close, because people that stand in my darkness don't always survive.
Sometimes I stand next to Kyle just to breath him in. To the world he is a dangerous man, but I see past that. To the heart of him. Kind, loving, and gentle. I wish I could have him for myself, but he wouldn't want a woman like me. A woman with baggage that weighed me down with cruelty. I don't know who I am, but I do know that when I am close to him, I feel whole for those moments. I can smile and it reaches my heart. He has no idea what he does to me. How he is the star of every fantasy that I have ever had. If only he knew what I would do to have him.
Two hearts that have beat as one since the moment they met will have a chance at love. But what will it cost them?