Breaking Phoenix

Pain has always been my safe place. I understand hurt. I flourish in it.
Phoenix
Growing up in foster care I learned to roll with the punches and give as good as I got.
I joined the Navy as soon as I could just to get away from the hell that was my life...of course the pain followed me there as well.
Now I'm back home and all the years I've spent with my back against the wall fighting for my life has made me cold as ice. Impenetrable to the happiness and love others try to show me.
Only Skyla, the popular girl from high school and the one woman who can break me with just a smile, can see through my mask.
Too bad she doesn't want me how I want her. Or so I thought.
When a ghost from my past time in foster care shows back up in my life will I be able to survive the pain those memories bring or will this fight be the one to break me.