Bøker av John Jans

By the age of four I had attempted to divest myself of a sibling, by the age of seven I was attempting to kill myself and had bigger plans of murder on my mind. I have written this true story of my tormented childhood as a boy raised in a twisted radical Christian household in a secular society. I was constantly being physically beaten by my parents as well as constantly being called a variety of offensive names by my mother; while both my parents also dealt in mental warfare. My mother expressed throughout my childhood that she had "No use for" me, and if begging for mercy I would only hear "Look, I told you that I was going to make your life a living hell for you, and you didn't want to believe me". I was denied access to a physician, even with a broken arm, and was isolated from others aside from family members. I had no toys, Teddy bears or stuffies, and there were no kisses, no hugs, and no other affectionate physical contact in our house. An illegally adopted sister who I was fond of was given back to her parents after forming a sibling bond. I was told the night before at the age of seven by my father that I wasn't to cry as that would make things more difficult for her. At the age of ten I was sexually molested by a person rooming at our house. At the age of twelve my pet rabbit was the surprise supper meal.Throughout this all I was always threatening to "shoot off my little blabber mouth" which would always result in my being threatened as to what would happen to me if I did so as well as the constant chants that no one would believe me.I went off the deep end I my teens as I tried to make sense of things and eventually found and or figured out the answers decades later. All this and much more happened in a good clean radical Christian household where appearances were everything.