Bøker av Courtney W Dixon

He is mine. I don't care how long it takes. I will have Malik Amin.Sullivan BeauchampSome people call me a monster. A psychopath. As if I care what others think. So what if I relish in the mayhem of slaughter or enjoy feeling the life blink out of someone? I am who I am. It was Malik who eventually brought me to his home and trained me to hone my skills to work under him as an assassin. Malik Amin is my equal, and he will be mine in all ways as soon as I can chip away at his ridiculous and completely unnecessary self-loathing.Malik AminSully lost everything as a teenager on my order. When I found him covered in blood four years later, I should have put him down, knowing what he was. Instead, I took him in to train him. It works for us until he wants me more than as a mentor. I cannot allow it. But if Sully is anything, he is a master at persuasiveness and discovering my weaknesses.Each book in this series will be read as a standalone, however, reading in order will add more pleasure to the reading experience. CW: graphic violence, murder, mentions rape, psychopathy explicit content.

He is mine. I don't care how long it takes. I will have Malik Amin.Sullivan BeauchampSome people call me a monster. A psychopath. As if I care what others think. So what if I relish in the mayhem of slaughter or enjoy feeling the life blink out of someone? I am who I am. It was Malik who eventually brought me to his home and trained me to hone my skills to work under him as an assassin. Malik Amin is my equal, and he will be mine in all ways as soon as I can chip away at his ridiculous and completely unnecessary self-loathing.Malik AminSully lost everything as a teenager on my order. When I found him covered in blood four years later, I should have put him down, knowing what he was. Instead, I took him in to train him. It works for us until he wants me more than as a mentor. I cannot allow it. But if Sully is anything, he is a master at persuasiveness and discovering my weaknesses.Each book in this series will be read as a standalone, however, reading in order will add more pleasure to the reading experience. CW: graphic violence, murder, mentions rape, psychopathy explicit content.

He is mine. I don't care how long it takes. I will have Malik Amin.Sullivan BeauchampSome people call me a monster. A psychopath. As if I care what others think. So what if I relish in the mayhem of slaughter or enjoy feeling the life blink out of someone? I am who I am. It was Malik who eventually brought me to his home and trained me to hone my skills to work under him as an assassin. Malik Amin is my equal, and he will be mine in all ways as soon as I can chip away at his ridiculous and completely unnecessary self-loathing.Malik AminSully lost everything as a teenager on my order. When I found him covered in blood four years later, I should have put him down, knowing what he was. Instead, I took him in to train him. It works for us until he wants me more than as a mentor. I cannot allow it. But if Sully is anything, he is a master at persuasiveness and discovering my weaknesses.Each book in this series will be read as a standalone, however, reading in order will add more pleasure to the reading experience. CW: graphic violence, murder, mentions rape, psychopathy explicit content.

One was afraid to fall in love again. The other was afraid to be himself. Together they fight their fears.Jace A motorcycle accident several years ago nearly took my leg. Then, it took my UFC career and, eventually, my marriage. My current life revolves around working a dead-end job and barely living. The only thing keeping me moving forward and giving me purpose are those kids I teach MMA at Knockout Gym. That is, until him. When Nolan calls for help from a dark alley, I don't want to get involved, but what man am I to ignore a plea for help? Now, I spend several evenings a week teaching the young man how to defend himself. But who is going to defend me against him? He's breaking down my walls, block by block, and I'm falling for him. Nolan I don't belong here. A rich boy in a bad neighborhood equals trouble. There's no way to fight four men off who mug me. But he comes out of nowhere like some knight of old, fighting his way through the thugs, saving my life. The incident left me shaken. I can't go through that again. Jace can teach me to protect myself, so I hire him for private lessons. But he's become more than my trainer and savior. Would he want a young, rich boy? We are worlds apart. Can we get past our differences to find common ground? Because I want him.Fighting the Fear is a standalone MM romance novella in the multi-author collaboration Fighting for Love. All the stories take place in the shared gym Knockout MMA Training Facility. At Knockout Gym, happily ever afters are hard-won. This is a demisexual, bi-awakening, age-gap, friends-to-lovers romance where even coming from different worlds, you can still share similarities and fears.CW: Mugging, depression, homophobia, violence, explicit language and sex.

He hates that he wants me.StoneJust the sight of Nico 'Stix' Jamieson makes me want to hurt something. Between his stupid smiles on that annoyingly handsome face and the constant drumming of anything that makes a sound with those drumsticks of his, I want to throttle him. No one is that happy. I don't trust it. Even when my hate for him is clear, he throws it back in my face with a smile and wave. And how he loves to push my buttons when he's feeling especially obnoxious. If I hate him, then why am I obsessed with him?Stix Damien 'Stone' Sloan hates me. I have no idea what I did to the guy. Despite being gorgeous, he scares me a little. He's bigger than me, and I have doubts he even knows how to smile. I have to put on a brave face and show how much he doesn't affect me. Fine, I like to tease him a little too much. I probably have some death wish. But underneath all those growls and scowls is fear and pain. You can see it when his walls come down, even if it's for a second. Everything in me wants to peek over those walls and see what's really behind them. I'm invested now. Who are you, Stone?MM Urban, Found Family, New Adult, Enemies to Lovers, Bi-Awakening, Demisexual Romance. CW: Mentions of abuse of a child, homophobia, prostitution, drug use, explicit language, violence, and sex.

He hates that he wants me.StoneJust the sight of Nico 'Stix' Jamieson makes me want to hurt something. Between his stupid smiles on that annoyingly handsome face and the constant drumming of anything that makes a sound with those drumsticks of his, I want to throttle him. No one is that happy. I don't trust it. Even when my hate for him is clear, he throws it back in my face with a smile and wave. And how he loves to push my buttons when he's feeling especially obnoxious. If I hate him, then why am I obsessed with him?Stix Damien 'Stone' Sloan hates me. I have no idea what I did to the guy. Despite being gorgeous, he scares me a little. He's bigger than me, and I have doubts he even knows how to smile. I have to put on a brave face and show how much he doesn't affect me. Fine, I like to tease him a little too much. I probably have some death wish. But underneath all those growls and scowls is fear and pain. You can see it when his walls come down, even if it's for a second. Everything in me wants to peek over those walls and see what's really behind them. I'm invested now. Who are you, Stone?MM Urban, Found Family, New Adult, Enemies to Lovers, Bi-Awakening, Demisexual Romance. CW: Mentions of abuse of a child, homophobia, prostitution, drug use, explicit language, violence, and sex.

He was my first crush. My forever crush. He was the reason I discovered my true self.FergusonI met Jack Hogan at fifteen years old when my dad took me to watch him box in an underground fight run by the mob. I was instantly drawn to the older man and the reason I discovered I was gay. But that was my secret and burden to bear. A year later, tragedy hit when my parents were murdered, leaving me gutted. Losing my father, who had taught me how to box since I was big enough to throw my first punch, turned me bitter and angry. Jack quickly took up the mantle as a father figure and my best friend while I used boxing to blow off my rage. Years later, Jack pushed me to get out of the underground scene and go pro with him as my manager. After my first win, I finally got to have a taste of Jack, and while it strained our friendship, I craved more. One taste wasn't nearly enough.Jack Ferguson Mulligan thought he could hide his attraction for me. I had known it for years but kept it to myself. I was emotionally unavailable, clinging to another man whom I thought loved me. As nine years progressed, Fergs grew into a man with an amazing talent for boxing. I knew he could succeed at it, so I got him out of the illegal fight scene and into the professional world of boxing. After a night of celebration and too many drinks, I dropped my walls and went to a place I shouldn't have. I hadn't been ready to be with anyone else intimately, especially with my best friend. Plus, I was his manager. It was a bad idea all around. But that night awakened something in me, allowing me to see Fergs beyond a boxer and my best friend. I just wasn't ready. He deserved all of me, not broken pieces. The two men eventually let go of their fears to grow something deep and meaningful. But could their relationship survive when Fergs finally learned who killed his parents? With a need for vengeance and his temper out of control, it could destroy all they had worked for. Tropes: Second chances, slow burn, boxing, best friends to lovers, hurt/comfort, age gap, pining, one that nearly got away, close proximity, work together, fighter/trainer. Knights of Boston is a three-book subseries from Kings of Boston, filled with fan-favorite secondary characters. Each book will work as a standalone and the characters will not mingle with each other. Each one will be its own story. Triggers: Internalized homophobia (not the MCs), grief, explicit sex, violence, and language.

He calls me his dark angel, but I'm merely a killer. A bringer of death.Luca DavenportHe is my angel, sent to be my death bringer to save me from my tormentors and betrayers-those who sold me into slavery when I was only eight years old. Angel came in with guns blazing and black wings that were made to crush his enemies and envelope me in love. He belongs to me and I belong to him. We are destined. After he saves me from my captors, we hunt down the remaining men who had abused me for eleven years to make them pay in blood.Dante VargaHe is a broken boy of no more than nineteen. He sees me as an angel, but I'm simply a killer. An assassin for hire. I can't save him. I can't take care of him. There's no room left in my dying soul to care about someone. Not anymore. But I can't turn him away either. I should kill him. He's a witness. But I feel compelled to protect him at all costs. Saving him will either shatter the ice around my heart or destroy me. Either way, Luca is dangerous.Each book in this series will be read as a standalone, however, reading in order will add more pleasure to the reading experience. CW: graphic violence, murder, rape, explicit content

He calls me his dark angel, but I'm merely a killer. A bringer of death.Luca DavenportHe is my angel, sent to be my death bringer to save me from my tormentors and betrayers-those who sold me into slavery when I was only eight years old. Angel came in with guns blazing and black wings that were made to crush his enemies and envelope me in love. He belongs to me, and I belong to him. We are destined. After he saves me from my captors, we hunt down the remaining men who had abused me for eleven years to make them pay in blood.Dante VargaHe is a broken boy of no more than nineteen. He sees me as an angel, but I'm simply a killer. An assassin for hire. I can't save him. I can't take care of him. There's no room left in my dying soul to care about someone. Not anymore. But I can't turn him away either. I should kill him. He's a witness. But I feel compelled to protect him at all costs. Saving him will either shatter the ice around my heart or destroy me. Either way, Luca is dangerous.Each book in this series will be read as a standalone, however, reading in order will add more pleasure to the reading experience. CW: graphic violence, murder, rape, explicit content

He calls me his dark angel, but I'm merely a killer. A bringer of death.Luca DavenportHe is my angel, sent to be my death bringer to save me from my tormentors and betrayers-those who sold me into slavery when I was only eight years old. Angel came in with guns blazing and black wings that were made to crush his enemies and envelope me in love. He belongs to me and I belong to him. We are destined. After he saves me from my captors, we hunt down the remaining men who had abused me for eleven years to make them pay in blood.Dante VargaHe is a broken boy of no more than nineteen. He sees me as an angel, but I'm simply a killer. An assassin for hire. I can't save him. I can't take care of him. There's no room left in my dying soul to care about someone. Not anymore. But I can't turn him away either. I should kill him. He's a witness. But I feel compelled to protect him at all costs. Saving him will either shatter the ice around my heart or destroy me. Either way, Luca is dangerous.Each book in this series will be read as a standalone, however, reading in order will add more pleasure to the reading experience. CW: graphic violence, murder, rape, explicit content

Noah and I were like a double-up wave. Together we were stronger and more powerful.ZaydenIt didn't matter if I was well-behaved or a good son. My parents refused to accept that I wasn't a sinner when I kissed a boy at fifteen years old. I soon found myself without parents and a home. But fate had other plans for me when desperation had me stealing a surfboard. The owners of the surf shop I stole from took me under their wing and fostered me. It was then that I met the blond boy, so full of love and sunshine, who would become the love of my life.Noah I tried hard to be a good son, taking care of my mom whenever she was on one of her drunken binges, which was all the time. But it was exhausting. I needed a break and a job. That was when I met the feral and angry boy with golden eyes. He was desperate for a friend and I wanted to be that person. His surfing club hired me so that I could finally find my way out from my mother's suffocation. It was also there that I found someone who would love me without conditions. Zayden and Noah had been together for five years, loving and supporting each other, through ups and downs. Will they survive the next trial life just tossed at them? CW: Abandonment, alcoholism, underage drinking and pot smoking, homophobia, bullying, explicit content. Not for readers under 18. This book can be read as a standalone, but like any series, it's always appreciated more if read in order.

They protected each other at all costs. It was them against the world until it wasn't. Now they have a chance to be stronger together once more.When he was thirteen, Daniel Bell was ripped away from his loving parents and thrown into the foster care system. Alone, grieving, and desperate for companionship, he clung to his foster brother, Luke. They quickly became best friends, providing each other with protection and comfort through their teenage years.Luke Allen was fourteen when he met Daniel, the small and terrified teen. That was the day he fell in love. He took Daniel under his wing and vowed to protect him at all costs, even at the expense of his own heart. No good would come from being gay and pining over your straight best friend. Eventually, his unrequited love grew too painful, so he separated from Daniel when they graduated high school.After tragedy hit Luke, he reunited with Daniel eighteen years later to work together for Ronan O'Callaghan, the leader of the Irish mob. Luke realized his love never waned for Daniel and finally confessed to him. Both men quickly jump into a relationship, realizing their love all along. Can Luke get past his fears of Daniel being straight? Can Daniel stop obsessing about his sexuality? Will Luke's past catch up with him and destroy the relationship he fought so hard for? A friends-to-lovers, second chances, m/m dark romance with HEA and no cliffhangers. CW: Molestation of a child (small mention), mentions of rape of a teen boy, bullying, teen smoking, abuse, homophobia, PTSD, explicit content.Each story in this series can be read as a standalone, but it will be better understood and appreciated reading in order.

From a blind date to lovers. Can two friends with benefits make the leap from hookups to ever after?When Jane Bond's entire world was turned upside down, she quit her job as a homicide detective with the Boston P.D. to start all over as a private investigator. After the disaster of her last job, and trying to rebuild her life, her sister set her up on a blind date. Anything to reduce the stress. But her date was the very lawyer from two years ago who disrupted her case. Now she had to decide if she wanted to go through with the date or tell him to buzz off. They were just friends with benefits, right, or was there something more?Playboy attorney James Clery strove to be the best. No woman would ever impede that. But after begging and pleading from his co-worker to go on a blind date, he agreed just to shut him up. Believing he'd be bored, dating Jane Bond made things much more interesting, remembering her from two years ago. But things didn't go according to plan, and James found himself interested in Bond more than he should have. So, he hired her for a job that could make or break his career. Could he get past his sexual habits and find something real with her?But those that destroyed Bond's career were after her once more. Could James save her while struggling to come to grips with his growing feelings for her?CW: Mention of Suicide and child loss, explicit content. Each story in this series can be read as a standalone, but it will be better understood and appreciated reading in order. You will get a better feel of the characters starting from the beginning.

How can one find forgiveness if they can't forgive themselves? Do monsters even get redemption?Addy Knox left her small town to make a start as an artist in the big city of Boston. She happily painted and worked to make ends meet until her best friend was framed for murder and killed while in prison. Addy struggled after losing her friend and repeatedly being turned down by art galleries. Soon her plans were interrupted by a mysterious dark stranger. He was beautifully broken, and she put all her focus on giving him the love she believed he deserved... until he revealed who he really was.Since Cian O'Callaghan was ten years old, he was trained for one thing only. To kill. His father taught his son all he knew with an iron fist. Cian's final test into the world of assassins left him shattered. With no hope of redemption, Cian bent his mind to his will to keep the pain at bay. He led a clean and simple life, away from temptation, until Addy. With her bright and beautiful disposition, she belonged to him, and he would do anything to protect what was his.Can Addy reach into the dark world of the Irish mob and accept Cian as a killer? Will Addy finally make it as an artist, or will her parents finally drag her back to the farm? Will Cian finally find the redemption he is so desperate to find? CW: psychological abuse of a child, murder, sociopathy, attempted suicide and suicidal thoughts, complex PTSD, strong language, explicit content. Each story in this series can be read as a standalone, but it will be better understood and appreciated reading in order.

Family is all that matters. Loyalty is everything. Obsession could destroy it all.Cat spent her entire life cowering in submission against the monsters in her life. People she was supposed to trust. After a surprise pregnancy, she fled to the big city of Boston for a safe place to raise her child away from her abusive husband. But fate had other plans. After one of her blackouts, she woke up with a gun in her blood-stained hand and a dead body at her feet, taking the fall for a murder she didn't commit. But a dark and dangerous man she briefly met on that fateful night saved her, or so she thought.Ronan became the new leader of the Irish mob with the death of his father, a role he was groomed for since childhood. Seeking revenge for his father's murder, a beautiful witness turned his world upside down. He shouldn't have cared that she took the fall for him. Against his better judgment, he staged her escape to protect her from his enemies. But when she walked into his world, she became so much more than that. CW: Abuse, explicit language, violence, sex. A dark Irish mafia romance with HEA. No cliffhangers.

To heal the body you must first heal the soul.José I lost everything. My parents were murdered, my best friend was sent to prison for a drug deal gone wrong, and eventually, my grandmother, who raised me since I was fifteen, died. I have been living life day to day to make a good life away from gangs and violence. As a nurse, I can finally do something meaningful. But I've been lonely, too, until the bumbling nurse standing a foot taller than me had me constantly irritated, yet, I found him strangely endearing. Jonas Family is everything. Family is life and goodness, and I would do anything to protect them. Including protecting them from me. When I came out as gay at thirteen, it threatened to tear the family apart. Some supported me. Some were disgusted. So, back into the closet I went to maintain the peace. But after eighteen years of absolute loneliness, there is only one man who could finally pull me out to see the light of day. José is a fiery nurse I work with, and I want him. Unfortunately, I keep irritating him too much for him to really notice me. Can the two men stop dancing around each other and colliding long enough to realize they are the perfect match? Will Jonas' family finally accept him as he is? And danger lurks too close to home for José. Can he protect those he loves in time? CW: Homophobia, bullying, racism, teenage drinking and smoking, death of parents, sibling abuse, attempted murder, violence, explicit content.

Learning to walk and love is a challenge, but it's worth it to have Finley Mulligan in your life.For snarky Finley Mulligan, life hadn't always been easy. Both of her parents worked for the Irish mob, who were murdered, leaving Finley to put herself through college and nursing school, all while trying to raise her teenage brother. Eight years later, she worked at Dr. Miller's clinic, owned by the Irish mob. When Callum O'Callaghan was left severely injured, Finley was hired to be his personal nurse and physical therapist. Falling for Callum had its challenges. Could she get him out of his head long enough to see a happy life with her? That he was more than his inability to walk?Callum O'Callaghan was the easy-going and fun brother. His identical twin, Cian, protected him from their abusive father, allowing Callum to live a relatively normal life as the family's hacker. But when Cian failed to hunt down a member of the Russian mob, they went after Callum in retaliation, leaving him severely injured. Now Callum must learn to walk again with the help of the lovely and funny Finley. First, he needed to let go of his anger and resentment to find unexpected love.But there's someone lurking, hidden behind computers and data. Someone seeks revenge and to see Callum dead. Can Callum find this predator before he kills Finley and him?CW: Explicit content. Each story in this series can be read as a standalone, but it will be better understood and appreciated reading in order. You will get a better feel of the characters starting from the beginning.

One night of lust could turn into an eternity of love. But desperation for vengeance could destroy their chance at happiness.After a life of poverty and abandonment, Charles Nolan sought normalcy and stability. He controlled every aspect of his life with fine-tuned precision. Everything was orderly. Everything had its place. Then entered a man, during a one-night stand, who shattered his carefully constructed walls and heart with little effort. But there was a darkness surrounding him, bringing out Charlie's own pain. Could Charlie get over his past? Could he allow this man to get close without crushing his soul? Or will his fears of abandonment take hold?Brady O'Callaghan survived his father's abuse, the man who ruled the Irish mob with an iron fist. But that didn't compare to the loss of his lover. Suffering from grief and PTSD, he lived as an empty shell, alone, until Charlie danced his way into his life. Finally, Brady saw the light at the end of the tunnel. A glimmer of hope. Could he push past his grief and find love again? Would his enemies take away someone he cared about once more? Would he finally get his retribution?A dark Irish mafia m/m romance with HEA. No cliffhangers.CW: PTSD, grief, homophobia, mention of child molestation, explicit language, violence, sex. Each story in this series can be read as a standalone, but it will be better understood and appreciated reading in order.